"you left without a single word, not even sorry."
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wellwell ,
sst is finally over !
did review 11 and wrote some random feelings i discovered , not sth i felt , but idk lah. just FOUND it.
i sound weird i know.
but i "collect" feelings.
scary ? kinda , but i don need to be sent to mental hospital.
here goes.
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when you smile and when you laugh
are you crying deep inside?
when you seem to feel the sadness i feel
are you holding your laughter behind?
when you try to console me
are you really there?

i dont know why i'm starting to doubt
it could be just me, it could be more
but from what i saw it seemed to me
that your laugh was hollow
that when you smiled your eyes were filled with agony
that when we ranted you could never look my way
that when you were consoling me your soul seemed to wander away
and above all, when i gave you that deep questioning look that penetrated right into your eyes,
you shied away.

what's happening?
you can tell me, you can trust me.
just please tell me whats going on
stop my world from turning upside down
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REMINDER ; THIS IS RANDOM !
not really sure if it makes sense, but ohwell.
i just let it flow , ya know .

anyway , seakim , good luck !

ANYWAY.
trainings been good ol training.
well , doing it aint all fun , bt thinking about having done it is very satisfactory.
as i said, happy with my yoyotest, not just the results but how i pulled through.
beep test, not really lah. but , its over right ? (:
during free time i've been going to physio a lil but more importantly ,
BLOGSHOPPING !
yes, my old pastime has got me hooked again !
well not hooked per se, like i cant keep off it ,
just got into the hobby again .
the funny part is. i dont really buy .
i just enjoy window shopping cos its so easy !

ofc, i still do buy if i REALLY REALLY WANT IT.
btw, if anyone sees transparent BACKPACK at no over the moon prices or ODM jelly watches below $20 PLEASE TELL ME !
so awesome. :D

anyway, liz is the only junior who made it into the team playing in the nationals.
good job !
really happy for her ,
and VERY envious :x
ohwell , i knew i would be lah . haha .
cos i play WA & GA.
WA - glynis is better.
GA - liz is better.
so , not really someth i thought i could make , but still , always worth a shot i guess . (: ohwell , doesnt mean i suck (:
good luck liz ! :D
training will be tougher for sure, but take it as a good exposure ! :D

heard some stuff going around in the team , and as usual hearing both sides, as usual problems surface from the same place. kinda funny , but ohwell.
whenwillyouguysjustfreakingseethatalltheseproblemsarederivedfrombgr?whenwillyouguyseverlearnyourlesson?whenwillyoueverwakeupfromyourfantasythatthinksrelationshipscanlastforever???

havent been going to CF lately.
i guess its tough lah.
still getting settled in school properly before i think about attending other stuff i guess.
i decided that since i have cell fridays and church sundays and quiet time ard twice a week, CF is something i'll leave aside first.

school right now is pretty much sports studies friends boarding and guitar !
prob joining "down by 5th avenue"
dont know what that is ? you'll find out. (:

okay, gng.
btw,

TODAYS DANA'S BIRTHDAY ! :D